Love? Trust? Hate?

Been quite a long time that I haven't updated this blog. I am quite upset about how things turn out to be at the moment.

Hmm...when you love someone, you would trust him / her - not exactly 100% but at least you trust him / her. But what happens when the trust is betrayed? HATE comes...

Sorry...for the lack of updates. I have been busy with work and I am trying to stabilise my emotions.My 'Al' was left alone - i am just not ready yet for shooting pictures.

There are so many things to do...so I might not be able to do frequent update of my blog. Hopefully after the 27th of this month I will be quite free - to actually do the things I am planing to do...

...life...

It has been a week after my grandma left us. An exhausting week - emotionally exhausted. To this date, I still haven't got the mood to write anything yet though there are some things that I would like to share. Lots of pics to post.

Now...it's just merely work for me... just work and my family-mom and dad plus my siblings. Throughout the last week, I was deep in thoughts - life is so vulnerable - you will never know when it ends.

I hope that I will have the energy and mood to put up new posts and pics.

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Couldn't think a title for this post. My grandmother has passed away last Monday at about 4.05 am...I am bit busy and I simply don't have the mood to write. Maybe next week my emotions will be okay.

Hectic

Sorry... for the lack of updates. It's been hectic for me. With lots of things to do and to be there for my sick grandma...It saddens me to see her so thin...a drastic change. She was well back in the year 2005, was only diagnosed - cancer in the year 2006.

Doctors had actually wanted to send her to KL / Singapore for treatment but she refused.She said she was too old...plus other health complications.To this date, she lies in bed. I pray for her to get better...She has to take morphine to ease the pain. The cancer which started in her nose has spread quickly. To me...my grandma is really a strong-willed person, as she endures the pain patiently. I hope that she will get better...

Let it be...

Just let it be...like this...as the curtains of lies drawn away...silently left me with despair...unseen tears...unheard cries...dire truth...shrouds me...painful as it is...just let it be...just let it be.

Reminisence - Road to Recovery (Part 1)

Honestly, I am still in my recovery process...How to say this in words??? Emm...after the major accident,nearly all of my memories were lost...yet I was lucky enough that I remembered my dearest family and friends. It was my dear bestfriend,DK, who had helped me a lot...she helped me to recall back...some 'lost' memories. I still remember that I had to ask her... the names of most of my friends...if i bumped into any of them.

Usually...I would ask her.."Who's that? Do I know her/him?"..so DK would tell me the things I need to know...At first, I was totally frustrated...because I couldn't recall much of anything. Just fragments of my memories plus my short-term memory was affected...couldn't remember the slightest thing...(now...my short-term memory greatly improved compared to last year).

I am so glad my family and friends have been around...to help me to recover not only physically but mentally & emotionally...and sometimes, when the memories do come back...My God!It can be painful...totally painful!!! Because I can get confused...as those memories 'flooded' too quickly and then 'gone'.Often...the memories came when I was more relaxed..especially before my slumber.