...life...

It has been a week after my grandma left us. An exhausting week - emotionally exhausted. To this date, I still haven't got the mood to write anything yet though there are some things that I would like to share. Lots of pics to post.

Now...it's just merely work for me... just work and my family-mom and dad plus my siblings. Throughout the last week, I was deep in thoughts - life is so vulnerable - you will never know when it ends.

I hope that I will have the energy and mood to put up new posts and pics.

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Couldn't think a title for this post. My grandmother has passed away last Monday at about 4.05 am...I am bit busy and I simply don't have the mood to write. Maybe next week my emotions will be okay.

Hectic

Sorry... for the lack of updates. It's been hectic for me. With lots of things to do and to be there for my sick grandma...It saddens me to see her so thin...a drastic change. She was well back in the year 2005, was only diagnosed - cancer in the year 2006.

Doctors had actually wanted to send her to KL / Singapore for treatment but she refused.She said she was too old...plus other health complications.To this date, she lies in bed. I pray for her to get better...She has to take morphine to ease the pain. The cancer which started in her nose has spread quickly. To me...my grandma is really a strong-willed person, as she endures the pain patiently. I hope that she will get better...

Let it be...

Just let it be...like this...as the curtains of lies drawn away...silently left me with despair...unseen tears...unheard cries...dire truth...shrouds me...painful as it is...just let it be...just let it be.

Reminisence - Road to Recovery (Part 1)

Honestly, I am still in my recovery process...How to say this in words??? Emm...after the major accident,nearly all of my memories were lost...yet I was lucky enough that I remembered my dearest family and friends. It was my dear bestfriend,DK, who had helped me a lot...she helped me to recall back...some 'lost' memories. I still remember that I had to ask her... the names of most of my friends...if i bumped into any of them.

Usually...I would ask her.."Who's that? Do I know her/him?"..so DK would tell me the things I need to know...At first, I was totally frustrated...because I couldn't recall much of anything. Just fragments of my memories plus my short-term memory was affected...couldn't remember the slightest thing...(now...my short-term memory greatly improved compared to last year).

I am so glad my family and friends have been around...to help me to recover not only physically but mentally & emotionally...and sometimes, when the memories do come back...My God!It can be painful...totally painful!!! Because I can get confused...as those memories 'flooded' too quickly and then 'gone'.Often...the memories came when I was more relaxed..especially before my slumber.

Accident....

...Oh My God!... Had a minor accident today...luckily no one was hurt. My friend wanted to go out and have lunch. Decided to got Sugar Bun only...Just when she wanted to go into the first left junction...she made a sudden decision to go into the second one - a few metres upfront. Then it happened!!! A car went out of the junction, the driver didn't actually see our car and continued to drive out of the junction.

Thank goodness, my friend only drove at a reasonable speed. I think about 40km/h..yet still couldn't manage to avoid the car - a direct hit to the side of the other's person car.I was slightly jolted forward...and my traumatic experience 'relive' again. I was a bit shaken...my friend was worried about me.She asked me to remain in the car, while she was discussing with the other driver.

Personally, both sides made their mistakes - so agreed not to actually bring the matter to the police. Case was resolved through careful negotiation & consideration.

Finally...had our short - lunch at Sugar Bun. Whew!!!

Devastated

Thought that I could simply skip the visit to hospital tomorrow. Unexpectedly, my blood tests results were not okay. The results showed lots of abnormalities - some unknown traces of ...? What.so.ever. Just when I feel much better - devastating news like this tend to pull me down...I was confident that my blood results would be fine but hey.. I was so... wrong.Talk about the joy of being overconfident.HA! Now, I am thinking of not going tomorrow...well sort of delaying things. May ask the doctor to give me another 'shot' at the blood tests...bla... bla...

I will continue on this post...updates coming in the next few hours...If I am in the mood to do it or maybe to be done in the next few days. Just stay tune (Feels like a talking advert). In the meantime...feasts your eyes with random pictures taken when I was having my lunch at Fratini's Restaurant in BSB.


Bouquet of white and blue roses for my birthday - my heart was totally touched by it. (Did promise that I would post this picture)


At Fratini Restaurant - enjoyed a 'nicelilious - superb' pizza & calamari.


Cozy corner at Fratini's Restaurant - makes me want to stay a bit longer.


Couldn't stop myself from taking another shot.

More to come...

This morning did some gardening and clearing up certain things. Did some cleaning at the backyard...feel a bit tired. The funny thing is that my cats - Oreo@Kocik and Casper keep on following me around. Seemed like they acted like bodyguards...Hehe but they can be annoying at times. As I was doing some replanting of my mom's plants - the two cats just sat or played beside me.

Aha...and tomorrow is Monday, working day. 3 days off - hopefully I will be rejuvenated and be more energetic tomorrow.

Can't post any pics yet... because I am just too lazy right now to bring my camera around...besides my 'AL' is in the hands of my trusted friend...

Maybe will post something later...for the time being...I am in need of some rest because I think I have overdone it a bit this morning. I really don't want to have another few days off ~ right now there is an 'alarm' buzzing in my head.